Hey! Sorry I didn’t see this earlier. I want you to know that you matter and are not alone. Feel fee to dm me if you need some support. I’m here for you. I know that things might feel hopeless or overwhelming or you might feel worthless, which is really hard. Please know that things get better and it’s worth it to hang on. I’ve been in a similar place before and I’m really glad that I’m here. I can say from the other end of things that it does get better. I still have bad days, but I actually feel like I’m living again and like my quality of life is worth living for. Some things that helped me in my worst moments: Distractions like TV, going for a walk, reading a book, talking to a friend, etc. Sensory distractions like holding an ice cube, taking a hot bath, listening to music, focusing on a particular sensation/feeling, focusing on certain colors, etc. Thinking of bucket list items like places you want to go, goals you have, things you want to do or accomplish, unfinished things, etc. Anything that you would regret not doing. Also please know that you have people that care about you. It sounds like your partner does care about your life. And obviously we don’t know each other, but I do care and so do the people that already replied. Also please reach out for support when you need it. Calling/texting 988 is a really great option. I know there has been a lot of post going around on social media, but I am familiar with their policies and they are reasonable. Definitely a great way to get support. You got this. Hang on and things will get better. I know it may not feel possible right now, but it does get better. I believe in you and you can do this. Please let us know that you are okay because we care. Take care.