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FinnWren

662d

tw: suicidal thoughts I don't want to go to the hospital but every time I talk to the hotline while I'm in crisis, they tell me to. I just feel really hopeless and want it over. I can't even use any coping skills or distractions bc I feel so out of it. everytime someone tells me something will help, it doesn't help or I can't do it bc I'm so hopeless and tired. I just want to die. the hospital is a really scary place and I don't want to go there again so I'm at my last straw and I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like there is nothing left.

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    • FinnWren

      660d

      @Meg133334 thank you so much for getting it! I will definitely try to track it but it's just so hard to know what is the meds and what is other stuff or my own cycles.

    • Meg133334

      661d

      I used to feel like this constantly. If I could go back, I'd tell my younger self not to give up hope because it will get better. For me, the key was finding the right combination of medication (which took YEARS, and a lot of advocating for myself). At least in my experience, coping skills only work if you're well enough. When you're in such a deep depression, they're useless tbh. One thing I think everyone should do is keep a detailed list of every medication you've been tried on, with dose, time you were on it, how it affected your mood, etc. Also do a lot of research and go to your doctors appointments ready to have a 2-sided conversation instead of just letting the dr make all decisions themselves. For example, I realized after researching that the medications that made me much worse were SSRIs. And for some reason, doctors always want to try every single SSRI before they jump to something else. A big step that helped me was I absolutely will not take SSRIs and tell the doctor that. It still took time after that, but once we eliminated the 10 or so meds that made me feel worse, we started making forward progress. It's also important to really look at symptoms and see if you're bipolar or depressed. Treating bipolar with an antidepressant and no mood stabilizer can actually make you more depressed and more unstable.

      • FinnWren

        660d

        @Meg133334 thank you so much for getting it! I will definitely try to track it but it's just so hard to know what is the meds and what is other stuff or my own cycles.

    • amymace

      661d

      So sorry your going through all of this. Please message me if you want to talk. I understand about not wanting to go to the hospital it is a scary place but sometimes they do help. Dont go through this alone we are all here just a click away😊❤️

    • Lizherrera_22

      662d

      I am sorry you are going through all of this. Message if you wanna talk. I know hospitals are scary but it might help even though you do t think it will.

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