VoodooHorizon

206d

TW: sexual assault


so in 2019 I was repeatedly taken advantage of by people i thought were my friends. they only wanted me for my body and I was too afraid to refuse any of their advancements. I would try to tell them "hey maybe now isn't a good time" or other things to dissuade them but they didn't care and had their way with me on multiple occasions. I wasn't raped, but molested, groped, and given non consensual sexual acts that still I can't do 3 years later.
what im really struggling with now is that, I believe, I am hypersexual because of this trauma. I try to cope by using sex instead of hurting myself and I hate it. I want to talk to my therapist about it but I hate even talking about it because it makes me feel disgusting. I wish I didn't even want to have sex at all.

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

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  • SunshineApril

    204d

    Hi. I completely understand, it’s tough but know that you’re not alone. This is completely normal. Some people end up becoming hyposexual and some hyper sexual. It’s not your fault that your body and brain reacted that way. You deserve to be the best version of yourself. You should definitely bring it up. You have people here to support you!

  • littlehooman

    204d

    💕🤗you got this

  • thathippiechick

    204d

    We have an 88% alikeness and I feel this. I am happily married, but when I first got together with my husband, I was very hypersexual. Like, I had never been an overtly sexual person, but experienced sexual abuse in a relationship prior to being with him and my brain turned it into "have sex or get hurt" or sexual acts, that is. Now, I am hyposexual. I don't like being touched, I don't like talking about sex, I shut down and feel shame about it. So, I feel we are two sides of the same coin. I don't know what your therapist specializes in, but I have found my therapist to be SO helpful. She is a sex therapist, but first and foremost, a general therapist, so she is able to bring a mixture of sex specialty and general therapy to tackle the trauma and PTSD I hold. Feel free to message. I don't always know what to say, but I'm here for you!

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