Dealing with the aftermath of sexual assault

So, I was sexually assaulted when I was 21…and I’ve only come to terms with this now, but I had a weird reaction to it…maybe not weird, but I became almost obsessed with sex in a way.. After it happened, I couldn’t sleep with my then boyfriend for a while…but I STILL wanted and craved sex…I would meet strangers out at bars, just to go home and sleep with them…I would dress provocatively, something I never usually do, and basically meet with people solely for sexual encounters…It was like I didn’t even care what the other person was into, I was just letting my body be used by other people, constantly seeking some kind of control or comfort of some kind out of the situation, even hoping I’d have fun, but never feeling truly satisfied or happy at the end of it. It’s taken me some really dangerous places…one time I had my drink at a bar spiked, completely lost memory of the whole night, then a couple of days later had a man texting me sexual pictures taken while I was unconscious…and for some reason I was still seeking it out, still looking for…something, I don’t know what… I felt horrible for cheating on my then boyfriend…and I still can’t understand why I became like that, or what compelled my behavior…in a way I still don’t get myself. I am definitely traumatized from the incident…I don’t have nightmares of the assault anymore but occasional flashbacks…so it makes me even more confused as to why my brain would hear this way. Wondering if anyone else had similar experiences? Thank you so much for reading ❤️