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mysticalViolet

736d

I have suffered from CPTSD (SA) since my assualt when I was 13. I went down the path of hypersexuality and have for many Years now (finally getting better) but anyway because of this, many people don't believe I was a*sulated because of my hypersexuality. does anyone else feel as alone? i mean even other survivors tell me I'm not valid. its hurt me for a long time. I'm also just a very open person. talking helps me so I talk about my trauma I never try to push it on others but people believe this also is proof I lie. is it really that strange that i talk? does that make me a bad person? or a r*pe accuser? I also just struggle massively with my relationships now because of it. when I'm alone my head goes back to him. the things he said and did. i hate being alone. but then I feel like a burden to my current partner because he trys to help me through it. I'm sorry this is all jumbled Its been forever since I could talk. thanks in advance.

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    • KirbyWirby

      726d

      I was assaulted separately from the abuse I suffered as a child, and I told a friend who knew about my past right after the assault happened, because the person who did it tried to follow me out of the club after I had gotten away from them. My friend seemed angry at ME and asked why I didn't go to the police, ect. I've also had trouble with people who know about my past abuse saying things like they wish I hadn't told them or whatever. I will never understand that. I was just trying to open up and do some healing with people I thought I could trust. But I've learned that even though I've been rejected, there are people who care about me, or who will care about it in the future. No matter what anyone says, you are so strong and talking about it is an important part of it. Hypersexuality is extremely common in survivors and it is unfortunate that prevailing mindsets about how an abuse survivor should act make people invalidate you.

    • KirbyWirby

      726d

      I was assaulted separately from the abuse I suffered as a child, and I told a friend who knew about my past right after the assault happened, because the person who did it tried to follow me out of the club after I had gotten away from them. My friend seemed angry at ME and asked why I didn't go to the police, ect. I've also had trouble with people who know about my past abuse saying things like they wish I hadn't told them or whatever. I will never understand that. I was just trying to open up and do some healing with people I thought I could trust. But I've learned that even though I've been rejected, there are people who care about me, or who will care about it in the future. No matter what anyone says, you are so strong and talking about it is an important part of it. Hypersexuality is extremely common in survivors and it is unfortunate that prevailing mindsets about how an abuse survivor should act make people invalidate you.

    • vinyl

      734d

      I've always thought it was better to talk about it. I think it helps a little for people to know where I'm coming from and how I got here. A lot of people can't seem to follow my train of thought but that's probably their lack of trauma if we're being real. I also went down the path of hypersexuality which I really feel just proves everything more so, so you're definitely valid I think

      • mysticalViolet

        732d

        @vinyl thank you and same I was super navie and innocent before hand too and then did a complete 180 I would think that would be a sign but I guess not

    • Rose_J

      734d

      You are valid. Just because you went the route of hypersexual doesn’t mean your abuse didn’t happen. Being Hyper sexual was your way of trying to gain your control back. I believe you that it happened and it can cause major issues with relationships. Flash backs are unfortunately completely normal. You know it helped. Trust yourself. You can trust yourself.

      • mysticalViolet

        732d

        @Rose_J thank you so much 💕

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