The Upside of Hypomania: A Love-Hate Relationship

I love and miss my manic episodes so much, it was a euphoric. So much energy and happiness, it feels like my birthday is on Christmas and I get everything I asked for.

Oh my god yes. Of course, the crash afterwards is hell, but as someone who is in deep depression 90% of the time, I love not feeling miserable for once. As much as I may annoy everyone around me during those times, and regret most of the decisions I make, that little sliver of (relative) happiness is so worth it for me. I know it's not sustainable, but I'm so desperate for some joy lmao

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O my goodness yes.. you kidding me? Haha I’m my best self when I’m hypo.. ok not really but SURE FEELS LIKE IT sometimes.. I mean I literally felt euphoric, like I was a social goddess, and was in tune with the meaning of life.. it’s the crashing into life crippling depression within a day or so after that really puts a damper on the whole thing..

I dislike it all. Even in a hypomanic episode,I do so much..I never give myself a break and then suffer from exhaustion. Plus there is just so much I,myself think I need to do and get done. And I have to get it done all right then and there. None of it is fun for me. I was in a manic,then hypomanic then mixed and now I'm in a depressive episode all within 1 1/2 month because of a dr that messed with my crap and destroyed my whole mentaility within a month.