Struggling with Uncontrollable Panic Attacks and Job Pressure

I can't prevent my panic attacks. I spent so long trying to control them. what's a situation becomes that I feel like I'm going to have one there's no stopping it. I've been beating for having heading attacks. No matter what's triggering the attack the attack itself is a fear trigger. My response is to freeze if I can't flee. like if I'm at work and I start to have a panic attack I just freeze but there's no stop in the attack. I'm in belittled by my managers for having panic attacks. and the fact that I have them in front of people at all has caused me to start having rolling attacks. it completely diminishes my quality of life. I don't need to work. I haven't had a job in over a year and I live alone. as long as I have food water and shelter I don't NEED a job. why should I dread waking up everyday. being constant for you that I'm going to have a panic attack 6 hours of the day just to go to a job but I don't need to survive. I've had three jobs and all three I quit after I attempted suicide I don't regret it I knew in the moment I was making the best decision for me. but everyone harps on it. and no one wants to be around me because I don't have a job. I literally have not left my apartment in over a month. it outside of the time I haven't talked to anyone. I talk to my therapist about it she told me to get a job when she doesn't know what to tell me. so I stopped seeing her because obviously she doesn't believe me when I say I can't work.