Struggling with Self-Improvement

I do this, and its really hard. I know some things may not be okay but everything will be alright :)

I dont literally do this every second but I def self-sabotage which seems to be what you're talking about or I think it relates to what you're saying. Do you feel like you self-sabotage or try to change but feel like you're failing at making progress towards that change? Feel free to dm me if you'd like to talk more about this!