Struggling with Mental Health and Feeling Alone

sounds like you also are in an abusive situation at home - that sort of ableism from your family is a form of emotional abuse. you definitely need to see a therapist if possible, and try and spend more time away from your family if you can (spending time at friends' houses, at the library, taking a walk, etc - whatever gets you out of the house but doesnt make your agoraphobia worse. for me that was walking at night since i lived in the middle of nowhere and nearly no one ever drove by where i walked but it may be different for you) as for the getting on disability, i recommend a website called "how to get on" - it's full of resources on getting disability with invisible illness. if you havent applied yet, make sure to get a lawyer FIRST even if you think you can't afford one - most don't take payment until they win your case and they'll take it as a percentage of your backpay

If you can, I would highly recommend trying to talk to a professional. Obviously that's easier said than done but even if you start with an app and message a counselor that way, they'll be able to get you started in the right direction. You can get a formal diagnosis if you don't have one already for your anxiety and maybe start CBT or a form of counseling/therapy that you're comfortable with. Possibly even medication if you're open to it. Don't let your family make you feel invalid. Your feelings are real. A lot of people just have a hard time understanding because they don't go through it. Maybe try writing your feelings and symptoms in a daily log/journal. It often helps to get it out of your head. Ultimately, it's best to seek out a professional when you feel that you can. Best of luck 🤗