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Peanut7495

412d

I'm struggling soo much. I'm diagnosed depression, anxiety, and adhd (all medicated), and I just CANNOT. Everything I do in my day to day life takes so much energy. I work in a clinic where I have to do paperwork and I get stuck just staring at my computer for hours getting no where. I cannot make it to work on time to save my life and they just rolled out a new policy that after 3 late days they terminate. I cannot clean my house no matter how badly I want to. my boss is getting frustrated with me, my roommate, everyone. and I'm frustrated with me. I see my lack of progress and I feel ashamed. I'm EXHAUSTED. I had a psychological evaluation completed thinking maybe there was more to it, and all he said was he wanted to keep an eye out on the possibility of bipolar II but otherwise to continue doing what I'm doing. But what I'm doing isn't working. I feel like I'm crying for help but nobody can see me.

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    • Jade777jjj

      159d

      Man I sure am sorry!!! U ok? Wanna vent???

    • Jade777jjj

      159d

      Man I sure am sorry!!! U ok? Wanna vent???

    • CatherineDerry

      288d

      I have several mental illnesses. I'm now on Social Security Disability Income because of their extent and other chronic physical conditions. I'm like you. Getting ANYTHING (even showering, eating, etc.) done is soooo difficult. I may have a good day here and there, but in general, I'm pretty much bed bound.

    • Unicorn_Arist

      288d

      This post is literally my life. I actually just got diagnosed with bipolar but I just can't push through the day and I just want it all to stop.

    • Sunshineseeker90

      347d

      I've been there, was let go because I couldn't make it to work on time. I recommend finding a job that you can work from. That's what I did. I enjoy it. 🙂

    • Atheris

      400d

      I've been there. If you have a therapist you can ask for help getting disability. I feel disabled but also feel ashamed to admit it when I look fine on the outside.

    • WickedJ

      411d

      I'm sorry you're feeling like that. I can relate. I hope you can find something that works for you and can get to feeling a little better soon. Please try to have some compassion for yourself. I have the same problem with being tardy and cleaning, and I beat myself up for it so much, which only makes it worse. Give yourself some hugs and speak to yourself sweetly while you fight this 🧡 It feels so crappy already. You don't deserve to feel shame on top of the stress.

    • Alyss

      412d

      It sounds like in addition to your mental illness, you're getting burned out on dealing with your mental illness. Trust me, it's a thing I deal with a LOT. I'm on disability, so my full time job is dealing with my health and with staring at all the things I have to do, making lists, and then not doing any of them. I know it sounds counterintuitive to add MORE stuff to your day, but consider picking up a hobby. Sometimes even a meditation app can help you focus and release some of the stress. Also I look up YouTube videos for how to make my home more audhd friendly. Maybe you can find some that can help you come up with ideas for how to make your job a little easier for your neurodivergency. The important thing to take from my suggestions is that you should find some way that you enjoy to move forward instead of trying to fit someone else's progress style. The fact that you're asking for help *is* progress, and you should be commended for seeking advice. Also, you should seek out @domesticblisters on tiktok or her book How to Keep House While Drowning (LOVE that title!). She's got depression and has some very good ideas for taking care of your life when it's overwhelming. I think she also has a podcast called Struggle Care if you prefer listening to stuff to watching or reading. In any case, I'm sorry you're struggling, but I think there *has* to be a way out of this crap. For all of us. Good luck! 🤞

    • Peanut7495

      412d

      I very much appreciate the reply! I have talked to my current medication manager about my meds and he will consistently tell me that due to my day-to-day life (I work 2 jobs) that my stress level doesn't allow him to properly evaluate or change my meds, which is partly why I had the evaluation done as well. I am seeing a therapist and I feel better afterwards but it's more of a, 'getting stuff off of my chest', kind of relief and not actual progress. I have talked to my boss about my struggles and she seems very understanding but I'm in constant fear of her getting fed up with my sh*t, you know? I will certainly try setting my alarm a little earlier!

    • verasama

      412d

      Reading what you're going through was like a review of everything I've been dealing with. Same diagnosis, and same issues. I've only recently really been able to make any kind of small progress, and I credit that to the fact that I started to see a new doctor who gave me some new prescriptions, and cut out some of my older ones. If what you're doing isn't working, you should tell your doctor that you would like to consider trying different medications, and if you're not currently attending some form of therapy to help you with coping skills, I strongly recommend it. I've been attending group therapy three times a week for the last month, and I feel like it's slowly helping me get my bearings on my own mental health. I've also started doing my own research into mental health, and coping skills and whatnot using self-help books. If you find the idea of self-help books boring or stupid, you might try the hardcore self-help series. I haven't gotten very far into the book about anxiety, but it seems to be fairly entertaining as well as informative. Have you tried talking to your boss about the issues that you're facing? perhaps if you explain that you're dealing with some mental health issues but you're trying to get them in order, they might be a bit more lenient. Otherwise, all I can suggest is setting your alarm earlier so that perhaps you can arrive on time. If you notice that you're consistently 20 minutes late, set your alarm half an hour earlier. Little things like that can really make a big difference.

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