Struggling with Medication Side Effects: Feeling Alone and Helpless

i started cymbalta on saturday and it’s been having awful affects on me, i took it yesterday but didn’t today because it’s been making me so depressed but today i fee even worse, i can’t stop crying, like literally it’s all i can do and i feel so alone and it feels like all my trauma and mental illnesses have resurfaced, my abandonment issues and bpd are on high alert and i feel so depressed and anxious, i can’t get into therapy until thursday morning. i just want to feel normal again, i’m so scared i’m going to go back into a really bad mindset that i just got out of a month ago. also my partner is worried and anxious now because of how i’m being and i’m so scared he will leave because i’m too much. i just don’t know what to do i feel so alone and awful, i have lost interest in everything and all i want to do is sleep which i know makes everything worse. i’ve considered texting the emergency numbers to talk to someone but everytime i do that they just give me a list of coping skills i can use and honestly it doesn’t help, i’m not like in danger but i’m just at a loss of what to do and how to feel better. has anyone ever experienced this? or is anyone able to talk to me? i need help.