Struggling with Depression and Trauma

I’m just having a really fucked up month for depression, and I’ve been starting to work through some trauma in therapy, so I know I should be moving towards better, but right now everything feels pretty awful and somewhat futile, especially since my physically health isn’t great either. I’m trying to break the habit, but I mask pretty reflexively, so most of the people around me have no idea how hard things are right now, and I couldn’t talk freely with most of them about it anyway. I’m trying really hard, and I know people around me love me and want me to be well, but I still feel so alone sometimes. (I’m on meds, being actively managed, and see my therapist weekly. I’m safe, just struggling)