Struggling with Depression and Anxiety

I've been dealing with depression and anxiety since 2006, but wasn't diagnosed until 2021. I've been doing all I can managing. but everything in my head just feels so loud and all over the place, chaotic, and the "episodes" have seem happen more and more frequent to the point that I can't tell when I'm feeling anxious, manic, depressed. I tried 3 different meds and therapy but had to stop since I couldn't afford it. this just sucks. if there's any kind of alternatives than the usual things people suggest, I'm all ears. I'm so tired yall...