Struggling with Adversity and Isolation

I'm worried I may never have a life I like. its been so long without the fundamental things needed for safety and security and socialization, the necessary grief and pain are seemingly unending. the holidays are going to be a particularly difficult time. I might loose my home and be homeless for the second time in a year. for the nth year, I won't have a place to go for the holidays. I dont have a job or unemployment or any more savings. I lost my best friend. Im having a difficult time asking for help from newer friends. I perpetually feel misunderstood, being neurodivergent can be very isolating. and I would feel like such a burden on a friends couch and domt want to loose all my things. and as much as some people might tell me it gets better, realistically with so much adversity its likely to stay difficult for some time. and realistically the mental health care isn't always adequate to meet peoples needs regardless how much we earnestly and proactively search for help.