Struggling with Addiction and Depression

I relate to how you are feeling, honestly. Sometimes I feel like If I heal from my Trauma then who am I. I've been traumatized since I was 13 so now who am I without it. I haven't lived without it. If I get better who will I be? I ask myself these things alot and while it may be super hard I try to ground myself by thinking of the facts. Yes I have had this since a child but logically speaking I am still me. At the end of the day I'll still be me just a better state of me. Hope this helps, I'm not great at advice but I know what your going through.