Struggling with Severe Suicidal Thoughts During Menstruation

Fellow afab person with bpd and other mood disorders here but unfortunately yes especially with those with bpd, I believe the around 40-60% of people with bpd experience heightened SI before or during their period or even after, pms already brings about normal mood swings due to the hormone shifts but if you already have a mood disorder or a disorder that affects your mood it can heighten your symptoms even more. You are definitely not alone, I’ve been through times the Si and also the fact my cycles are so heavy and painful at times as well was all so bad I almost attempted or thought there’d be no way I could survive it it’s like everything goes black and you can’t remember “ah, I’m on my period things are heightened right now”. But that’s truly what I have to keep reminding myself during those times, it feels completely out of control and unbearable now but there is always a end to it you won’t be in your cycle forever and your symptoms will likely have far more mercy on you soon. Wishing you all the best <3