Trying to Understand My Mental Breakdown

@Tristan082218 😥 I didn't know that it was like that... When it first happened, I felt less in control but still had some control and did respond to my regular name. There's Alex, Sanders, Chester and Renna. Alex is a male, and I am Andrea and female for the record. Sanders is trans masc/ non-binary. Chester is just a regular guy and a brain organizer, and Renna is either a trans woman or drag queen. I know that I have been easily influenced from the LGBT people in a quite a long time. Nothing against them but as soon as I step away and join Jesus, I feel 100 percent better. Sorry, but isn't Borderline Personality Disorder not a switching disorder and rather about being neglected or ignored?? Does that tie into narcissistic disorder too?? I don't really remember being neglected besides getting lost a lot because I was an ADHD child. I wasn't diagnosed that young but I felt I could have been diagnosed earlier if it wasn't for my Dad. He was the type to deny things. And probably didn't get an autism or ADHD diagnosis, but he passed when I was 23 or so. He was only 52. 😥 I know I can't put all the blame on him. He probably would have wanted me to find out and get help. I don't want to think that my bipolar disorder could be responsible for it. Or maybe I've been misdiagnosed somewhere?? I was diagnosed with bipolar after I had my breakdown. That's what they said it could be, but I didn't feel like it was accurate because I don't know when I feel these episodes of manic and depressive energy. Sometimes it's on a daily basis. Idk. I'm still looking into it though.