Concerns about possible DID

hey! yeah i know it's pretty scary but that sounds like DID to me, especially if you're having black outs where you act differently. i recommend watching a few educational videos from "the rings system" on youtube! good luck, feel free to dm, i'd be glad to share experiences but there's so much to being a system, i wouldn't even know where to start with ours or others either. just remember everyone's system can present differently, as it was uniquely made to get you through your uniquely difficult life situation and help you cope, however that may be. every alter first arrived to help yourselves. (:

I'm not 100% sure myself either, but much like you, I've been aware of dissociative episodes where I myself don't remember anything that happened, but I clearly was still a functioning individual during those times and even displayed different behaviors. one particular recurring dissociation would happen while I was driving, when I came back to consciousness after what I thought was a blackout, I'd still be driving.... no damage to myself, my car, or others.... occasionally scary when I'd come back to driving on the opposite side of the road, but I'd rather that than off the road and into the lake on the other side.... it hasn't happened again in quite a while, but I have a vague idea of my behavior and personality when I'm dissociated, despite knowing it's not me me and never really.... interacting with the non-me personality I'm not incredibly knowledgeable about DID either, but I hope you find the input you're looking for

yeah, thats DID. i don't know many people who very cleanly and clearly switch all of the time, even if they say they do. what you described is a dissociative disorder and with the drastic changes in personality that would be DID. you can have DID and still feel like all of your other players are "you." hope this helps! DM me if you have any more questions, i love to talk about this stuff