Struggling with Health Anxiety and Letting Down My Partner

I used to literally do the same things as you. I got to a point where I told myself, what is looking up things possibly wrong with going to do? Make things worse and heighten your anxiety. So for my sanity, I literally had to force myself not to look up anything and continue to distract myself. I know it's hard but you need to give yourself more credit. I don't personally know you, but I know you're very strong for having to deal with all this stuff that you don't want to. But once you accept that it's apart of you and doesn't define you and that you are in control, not anxiety, that's the first step to ridding yourself of all the terrible feelings anxiety gives you. You got this!

Maybe it comes off that way more so with the fact that you have to deal with the anxiety and he has to see you go through something that he can't physically relieve you from. I think you just need his reassurance that his issues are with your anxiety and not with you.

You shouldn't think like that. Honestly if your partner loves you for you, although it may be hard on you both sometimes, they'll understand and be there for you. I 100% know how you feel. Sometimes I feel like my anxiety is a bit much for my partner to handle and when I express my concerns to him, he lets me know that he's there for me no matter what and everything will be okay. Love knows no bounds, so if your partner is the one for you, they'll understand and be with you every step of the way. I hope this helps 😊