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Feeling Lost: How to Find Purpose in Life

spicysugar

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I dont feel like im living my life

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Dissociation

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)

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    • spicysugar

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      @spicysugar Sometimes it's a video game and I can make some influences on the world, and sometimes it's a TV show and I can't do ANYTHING but watch, and sometimes it's nothing, as if my life dosent exist and then I wake up several months later, one time it was 3 years I missed out on like it was the blink of an eye. I don't think people quite understand the grasp of what makes even potentially having DID so SO terrifying. Someone else, someone I don't know is controlling my body and getting me into situations I might not want to be in. Is it my body at all? Or am I just one of the other beings inhabiting it? What can I do that will affect things that can't easily be reversed by others? So I got a shitty little snail tattoo on my shoulder cause I couldn't think of anything else. It sucks.

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    • Karlie2000

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      I felt like this for a while. Turns out I was too good at numbing my emotions and started dissociating and depersonalizing. It was like a was living in a dream state rather than real life. I actually did a few "are you dreaming" tricks to check a few times. I would also have an almost violent revulsion to seeing myself in a mirror, with the thought, "that's NOT me." It was awful, but it was almost like I didn't have the energy to be scared by it. Just an underlying anxiety like in a horror movie when you KNOW there's about to be a jumpscare. Hang in there, though. Seriously. When the dissociation passes, it's the most wonderful feeling. It's like the sun coming out after weeks of gray skies, and suddenly everything is sparkling with dewdrops. It's like realizing your headphones weren't all the way plugged in, and you fix it and suddenly the sound is crystal clear. You almost don't realize how unreal everything feels until suddenly, gloriously, you're LIVING again. It will happen, you just have to hang in there until then.

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      • spicysugar

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        @Karlie2000 yeah I used to get severe "the world is ending" type panic attacks when I saw myself in mirrors to the point I would cover any reflective surface in my dorm. Now it's just as if I'm floating through life, but it's not even my life. I start thinking I don't exist at all and like nothing I do will matter, it won't affect anything at all. Sometimes I ground for a few hours tops but nothing really happens. So then I'm stuck again, watching my life happen as if I'm trapped behind a screen and can't touch the "characters" on the screen with my own hands, as if life is one big video game. That's what I've been in since about December of last year and it sucks, and it sucks more to know that my med provider and therapist both keep telling me to go get tested for DID but im too scared to do it. I'm terrified that I'll wake up one day and find out I've been through the testing and got diagnosed. I desperately don't want it.

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        • spicysugar

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          @spicysugar Sometimes it's a video game and I can make some influences on the world, and sometimes it's a TV show and I can't do ANYTHING but watch, and sometimes it's nothing, as if my life dosent exist and then I wake up several months later, one time it was 3 years I missed out on like it was the blink of an eye. I don't think people quite understand the grasp of what makes even potentially having DID so SO terrifying. Someone else, someone I don't know is controlling my body and getting me into situations I might not want to be in. Is it my body at all? Or am I just one of the other beings inhabiting it? What can I do that will affect things that can't easily be reversed by others? So I got a shitty little snail tattoo on my shoulder cause I couldn't think of anything else. It sucks.

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    • Something_Strange

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      I feel this ..

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    • KarlyGalin

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      i get this completely

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    • ThunderBeetle

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      I am surviving not thriving. Sounds like you are in the same boat.

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    • faustmare

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      I'm so surprised I'm not the one that posted this šŸ˜­

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