Feeling Proud But Needing Validation

Can’t sleep tonight. Thinking of how far I’ve come and I feel weird about being proud of myself. Like I was in partial and inpatient, wanting to unalive myself but now I’m finishing up a great semester and having such a great mood and life outlook. I feel like I hit bottom and things are only going up and life is feeling more manageable. I am really proud of myself. Yet I still look for the validation of others, and because of this, I feel not as great. I hate that I want someone, other than my therapist, tell me, “wow, i am proud of you.” I know people love and care about me, but I just like verbal validation I suppose. Does anyone relate to any of this?