Feeling Alone and Frustrated: My Struggle with Suicidal Thoughts

I want to die. I want to cease being alive. Not because life is too hard but because it will always have hard parts. it’s the same things over and over. i’ve had a wonderful life and i’m ready to leave. i wish someone would help me leave, but everyone sees what i want as something bad. they want me to change. i feel so alone and also mad knowing that nobody supports me in this. i understand why. it’s just frustrating. I’m trying to advocate for myself and nobody is listening, they’re just trying to change my mind. I’ve realized that the only way out is myself. unfortunately it will most likely hurt. i may fail and suffer the consequences, and i would traumatize those who find me and care for me. i wish it could be peaceful and that people would understand and be kind about it. i hope i’ll get the strength to do it soon.