Disturbing Sexual Thoughts

that sounds like intrusive thoughts, which could be related to your PTSD or it could be a sign of OCD. I've had similar disturbing thoughts, I get how distressing it is to experience that. Just remember, those thoughts don't hold any meaning, they're called intrusive for a reason, and you're not a bad person for thinking about those things. If you're really worried, you can talk to a therapist about it. They're not gonna report you to the police, they hear about horrible, downright terrifying intrusive thoughts all the time