Dealing with Trauma and Disorders: Jealousy After a Friend's Accident

Mental illness is insane sometimes. My best friend was in a car accident (they are okay, their knee is hurt and their car is totaled but it could have been so much worse) but I found out about it from another mutual friend. Technically they posted an update about it in a group chat were both in but I have muted because it's so big and gives me anxiety a lot, but not being one of the first people they told really bothered me anyway. I know them well and I KNOW that wasn't at all how they were thinking about it and they were going to tell me reguardless. But the second feeling I had after fear for them was jealousy at not being the first to know. and I feel horrible for feeling that way and of course haven't told them that because it doesn't really have anything to do with them. but my brain is making me feel like I'm both the worst person in the world but also being abandoned by them because they didn't tell me about it first. anyone else with similar trauma and/or disorders ever experience this? any tips on how to deal with these feelings?