Dealing with Extreme Emotions: My Recent Experience

splitting is really really hard. when i was using and off my meds, me and my ex would get in horrible arguments, i couldnt say what i wanted to and would keep yelling because i feel like thwy arent listening to me. my drug use and breakdowns and splitting and a symptom of my autism mixing in, not bwing able to speak, ruined our relationship. they got with another girl while i was in rehab, and i wanted to run away, use, i felt like it was a test, testing if i'll give in. borderline is a curse, and untreated, it ruins lives, and im so sorry that yiu have to deal with this too:(