Dealing with Dissociation After a Fight

Completely relate. My experience is anytime I was yelled at or my parent got angry I'd have a panic attack and then I'd be mistreated for having that panic attack. I was told I was just being dramatic crying and if I couldn't stop I got beaten. So between the negative association I have with yelling and rage and the horrible experiences I think about when I have a panic attack it's very hard to speak up for myself when I feel like I'm being disrespected or to be able to have a conversation when someone's just trying to have a healthy confrontation because the second their tone shifts I become triggered and terrified. Learning to break that cycle and change the reflex that has been engraved in every ounce of my being is very trying and very difficult.