I'm sorry that this is happening :/ I deal with terrible anxiety and ADD so it makes dating/relationships a lot worse for me. I know it's a different situation than yours but I know what it's like. Sometimes I tell myself that I wish I could eliminate this part of me and that I wish I was more "normal", but then I remember the right person wouldn't be someone who sees me as my mental problems and attachment issues (if that makes sense, english isn't my first language lol) and wouldn't use those things against me. one day you'll find the right person. it takes time for us to find someone right, and it can be difficult to be patient. I hope that this is helpful and I wish you the best.