I only have ever found that people judge me and my actions, I always judge them, but they judge no matter what. They'll always presume in any formal or informal argument that I'm getting mad. I have to tell them I'm not getting mad, they say in defensive and so I can't continue to say anything. So I try to illustrate that they just put me into a corner but then they normally get mad bc I'm speaking down to them at this point and yea... That's my take on every conversation that shows how people will just demonize me. I love how you used the quote. To describe that BPD people have triggers and emotions, and even emotions about those emotions really shows how complicated shit gets. I struggle every day to not over analyze things and care so deeply. But emotions are passions a desire a craving, it's a necessity for me to feel the dopamine of an action bc what else would living be... But GOD do I have to fucking deal with embarrassment and shame for every action I take... Like I have this boss that hoovers and tells me to work harder, so every second at work I feel incompetent and like I'm a failure... And everytime he comes up to talk to me it's a fight to control myself