Feeling like a Disappointment

I know how you feel as I got a mother that lies to me about things and now she started copying what’s wrong with me and uses that constantly against me I mess up on being a daughter sometimes but I always end up the blame for everything I self harm to punish myself for being s curse and a burden on everyone so I can see your point I’m 18 now and I’m trapped in this house I have a guardian but I don’t feel I have the right to a good life but if your someone who can be lucky and give yourself a good life go for it but remember to look after yourself and don’t let them pull you down

Unfortunately sometimes it's this exact scenario for alot of us. Sometimes our family or even friends too sometimes just never are there when we needed them, even when our actions pleaded and begged for help. It is a different kind of hurt and betrayal, it seeps into your heart and mind. However always know that where there is people that won't help you, there is somewhere else you will find your people. People to love you, accept you, help you even if you resist or try to hide it, and will embrace you for the beautiful and powerful person you are and have become. I'm so sorry your story didn't start off right, but once you are freed the new story had just begun.

i understand this struggle. if you need someone to talk to i’ll be here i understand your pain. i felt the same way. it does get better!