Struggling with Chronic Illness and FOMO

You felt unseen I believe & you were. I don't believe you were validated. Honestly your reaction doesn't sound far from what mine is

Those 10 minutes are super important in my opinion. It’s super easy to get left out on out purpose or accident by school friends. It happened to me a lot in middle school and high school. I think you’re justified to want to take that socializing time. That being said I do understand with gas prices right now and the cost of your appointments and how long you guys spent at the doctor she was probably wanting to save some time and money. I have completely lost my mind for the exact same reason more than once when I was younger. It’s even harder when you feel like you can’t control your reaction to the situation and it’s annoying and you feel crazy and completely at the mercy of everyone and everything around you. I still get down because of how much I have to rely on other people and how much control I will never have in my own life but learning how to deal with that feeling of dependence will make it pass faster and will make it easier to deal with. I’m sorry it’s a crappy situation we’re in with our short, expensive lives but I also feel like we live it more than other people because we understand how fleeting it is. If you want to talk more feel free to dm me. Hang in there!!!

As for why you get fixated on these things, ocd and adhd can enhance when you already feel upset over changes in things like plans or other routine. But for you personally, it just sounds like a smaller symptom of the greater stresses in your life. Missing out feels horrible, like seriously. There are some things that just cant be helped and not everything works out. Life is up and down and never in the way you want or expect, and its really freaking hard. I know youre young, but what youre feeling is real and its something that cant be fixed with medication. Its not ever going to go away entirely, and learning to cope with it looks different for everyone and comes with time. As more and more happens in your life, youll start to get a feel for what works for you and what doesnt. That, of course, is all long term. For now, for the present, make a list of what makes you happy. People, places, games, activities, arts, music, whatever it is for you. Write it all down, and then keep it in mind as you go about your days. Notice when youre enjoying whatever youre doing, and when youre not, think about making time for what does bring you joy. Lifes tedious and stupid and perfect once you figure it all out which is NEVER, so in the mean time, focus on what you enjoy :)