Struggling with Mental Health and Feeling Left Behind

Depression is hard you're not all those bad feelings, depression puts those bad thought in your head try saying something positive when you're having bad thoughts even if you don't believe it right now it can help with the negative self talk. No one has it all together in their 20s unless it's handed to you. You have to do your best doing the things you're not wanting to do can give you a bit of a mood lift give yourself positives every time you get something completed. Good luck you can do it. I think if you find it hard to talk to a therapist find a friend or mentor to talk to.

Ik how ya feel. For a long time in my life I was so depressed I sounded just like you. Yet no matter how hard I put a smile on my face I still get depressed. All I do is, I try to find a hobby. Something to keep my mind off of things. That's what I do daily and without those distractions, I fall back into that endless cycle. You also need professional help fs, because if you don't. I'm afraid you would do something awful one day. I almost did, but it's good I'm still alive. I hope you find happiness again, or at least some happiness