Dealing with Relationship Issues and Borderline Personality

My note ex fiance has bpd. Horrible disease. Makes her Jekyll and Hyde. Been the most tumultuous and strenuous 3 years of my life. She's in therapy, don't dbt and cbt. On meds but still a total reading angry person. I stood by her as long as I could, but it's done. For my mental health and that of my daughter it had to end. Hoping she someday finds peace.

I haven't been fully diagnosed and I am curious is I have BPD... but relations for me are hard.. I honestly don't know how my own family puts up with me, there have been so many times where they could've just left me alone and fend for myself but they always come back to me when I regret my actions... I feel toxic most of the time but I can't help it when I get triggered by something

I struggle alot with this. I am easily triggered and I am eithwr ignoring myself to try and keep things calm which makes me triggered more or I let things blow up and that hurts the relationship.

Sometimes, it's hard to find the point where it's not crazy