Conventional Beauty vs Actual Attraction: What's the Difference?

Oh! Thats a very different question than your original post :0 I mean, that's more of something you gotta figure out? We couldn't tell you how you feel about women. Doing some deep thinking on it might help you figure it out?

Aesthetic attraction is a fairly common experience that isn't often named, and gender envy is usually associated with trans people but anyone can experience it. Both could be a part of what your feeling but it sounds more like the former.

I can usually tell by my increased heart rate, sweaty palms, having to tear my eyes away from the parts of them that really attract me (usually waistline, shoulders, butt, lips, eyes for me) and almost this competitive need to puff out my chest and impress lol Sometimes when I'm just mildly attracted to a woman I do question myself, and it used to be much harder before my libido kicked in at 19 years old. In those cases I imagine them kissing me and see how my body reacts. Seeing a conventionally pretty woman usually leaves me in awe and even a bit jealous, but it's mostly mental not physical.