Grieving the Loss of a Relationship I Ended

What am I genuinely trying to do? Am I trying to have her react to my messages? Acknowledge my presence? Why do I want that when I was the one who cut her off. This is what I chose. I know I didn’t give her that choice, so now she chooses to interact with me the way she chooses. This is the outcome. It hurt being around her when things were slipping, and it hurts when she won’t acknowledge me. It’s been a little under two months since I broke off contact. I know I will grieve at my own pace. But I want to forget already. I want to move on, just how she said I should have all that time ago. I did it for myself. I did not give up on you.