Do you ever not realize you're binging until it's over?

Yeah ! I completely dissociative when I go get the food and while I'm eating the food. I can't even taste it I just eat really fast.

Anxiety and food is so closely knit together. Like when I get anxious or lonely I just want to eat and don't know how to stop or say no

Yes!!! And sometimes I will tell myself specifically "Don't go to Tbell today and eat $20 worth of food", but the anxiety hits and I do it anyway. Afterwards I realize and then feel super shameful.

This happens to me even when I'm not binging. I have such bad anxiety around food that I just space out when I eat. I totally ate a full bowl of rice today, but I don't remember eating it all until I was almost done.

Yes! It's also like waking up after a night of drinking. Remembering what you did and feeling shame.