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Kaiiyla

748d

Cw/// I think I just went into my first completely uncomfortable binge. It started with a couple of bites, and then my body just went crazy and I wanted to shovel absolutely everything down. I would have if I didn’t stop myself, even when I did my body wanted more and I had to force myself to not go back and get more. I’ve heard from some sources it becomes apparent after restricting for so long, your body starts to move on it’s own to survive. But I’m still so dissociated and numb right now and feel so ashamed, I feel like a failure because of how much I’ve failed my plans due to this. If anyone can help or give some insight into anything I’d really appreciate it, I feel so alone.

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    • chefboy

      746d

      As someone with a restrictive eating disorder I have often felt on the verge of losing control around food since my body is craving nutrients so badly. Unfortunately easing up on the restriction is the best way to feel more in control around food. Much easier said than done though.

    • chefboy

      746d

      As someone with a restrictive eating disorder I have often felt on the verge of losing control around food since my body is craving nutrients so badly. Unfortunately easing up on the restriction is the best way to feel more in control around food. Much easier said than done though.

      • Kaiiyla

        746d

        @chefboy indeed, it’s been happening more consistently and it’s been pushing me towards seeking rehab because of how miserable it is to fight alone

    • kikil

      748d

      just know you're not alone. reading what you posted felt like a window into my own mind. we are all in this together.

      • Kaiiyla

        748d

        @kikil this truly comforted me so much, thank you so so much honestly💕 It can feel like such a lonely and isolating feeling at times especially with moments like this it’s so hard to cope

    • kikil

      748d

      i used to deal with this constantly. the feeling can be so intense and the guilt overwhelming. the way i usually dealt with this is by wearing whatever made me feel the most comfortable, staying as hydrated as i can, and trying to beat myself up less. i know it's nearly impossible to not berate yourself. i won't pretend like it's easy to show yourself compassion in those moments. but i promise it will pass and the discomfort will eventually subside.

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