I know it’s hard and so much easier said than done, but you are not alone. As hard and pointless as life seems; you have a purpose. I’m kinda struggling too mentally lately we’re in this together!

I completely understand. I never expected to live this long and now that I'm here I'm struggling with what I want to do with my life. But I have built a support system up of friends and family. There will come a day that you are happy you lived this long.

have absolutely been there, and this night will pass. maybe if you get comfortable in bed and try to wind down (breathing exercises, reading, asmr) you might be able to get some rest?

I can't sleep either it's a constant battle I'm tired but can't sleep

I really recommend a sleep mask! Mine definitely took some getting used to, but having something else keeping my eyes closed helps a lot when I can't get my brain quiet enough. Others have mentioned it too but try making a playlist of calm songs that put you at ease, they don't necessarily have to be made for sleeping. I have a lot of fingerstyle guitar on mine because the plucking sounds make my brain feel good