Have you looked into quiet bpd?

Mine is the same way

Mine has been getting more and more like that over the years

There is no such thing as normal- everyone is different but some may have same diagnosis and similar symptoms. I was diagnosed with EUPD- emotionally unstable personality disorder and yes it was difficult to diagnose to begin with GPs saying "oooh it's depression and you'll get over it" saying get over it made me snap! It's ok not to be ok, it's ok to ask for help if you need it! Bob me a chat if you ever wanna chat

Sometimes GPS don't take notice until you've been In hospital

so it for sure could just be a specific type of bpd because i always felt the same way, I never liked to stir the pot and have been searching for help ever since I thought I had bpd in hs, believed I had it and sort of got diagnosed with bpd when I turned 18. well, turns out I'm autistic. I found out apparently some people will get misdiagnosed with bpd when it's autism. while this definitely may not be the case for you- I thought I'd share just in case you hadn't considered it bc I sure didn't until I was 21 😅 I still get the insanely intense emotions but nowadays I wonder if I still do have bpd or if it's been the autism all along.

I’ve heard of there being specific subtypes or something like that so maybe that may help you? I know that my BPD traits are more internalized than outward so I don’t look like the “typical” person with bpd

i've always had severe social anxiety, and that mixed with autism has made me avoid interacting with people in general. i've never gone out and done all the dangerous impulsive stuff the articles tell you about, because i was sitting in my room hiding instead. my impulsively and addictive tendencies show up in other ways (like. buying way too much stuff online lmao) but i don't think you're abnormal or anything. especially when it comes to bpd, we all have a different concoction of other mental illnesses and things that affect our behavior. everyone's experience is always gonna be different

I’m the same way. I’m also autistic and have adhd. I’m a people pleaser at heart and my social anxiety especially makes me afraid to show my feelings and often I internalize and suppress them. I don’t almost ever have loud yelling rage episodes but will have periods of time where I “split” and go from happy/trying to take care of myself to dissociated/angry but in a “quiet” way if that makes sense. Splitting for some people may look like literally screaming but for me it usually looks like shutting down or self harm or some other self destructive activity

I'm the same way, but honestly I might have been misdiagnosed for autism. I'm still looking into it though

Sounds like quiet bpd

I think everyone with BPD has this overwhelming feeling of wanting to be recognized as different. I have that feeling very strongly. And I’ve heard many others say they have the same issue

I have always been more introverted, my diagnosis only made me realize some of my past choices and reactions. I feel like we are all expected to be this one person when we've been diagnosed but I feel like that isn't fair to us as people. Just because you may not be typical doesn't mean your not normal.