Struggling with Trans Life and Disability

I've been having... probably the worst time of my life since moving in with my mother. she's .. debatably a good caretaker. she's a good person but tends to have the mindset of "you can't possibly have that many disabilities" (even though she's friends with my aunt who has too many disabilities for me to count). I feel like I can't even go to her for these things which leaves me almost all alone. going through disabled life is hard enough. going through trans life- especially in a red state- is hard enough... but to do that with such a small support system?? to have your support system not even in the same house as you? it feels... almost hopeless sometimes. for a bit of context: I recently found out that I won't be eligible for HRT until I at least have a diagnosis/ explanation for my seizures. if anyone knows how hard it is to get diagnosed with damn near anything these days, it's disabled people. I know it's gonna be a while before I get what I need. when I say I need hormone therapy I mean it. my dysphoria is crippling some days and it prevents me from doing a lot of things. the stress I get from it has caused delusions, hallucinations, and even seizures themselves. I can't escape this hell and doctors don't want to help me get out of it