Struggling with BPD and severe self harm

I use rubber bands to snap on my wrist. Also I use Elmer's glue. I wait for it to dry and peel it of my skin.

I got red food coloring and a rubber/plastic play knife to trick my brain and make it look as realistic as possible so those urges were convinced that I was actually doing it. The red food coloring helped with the intensr desire to bleed as well and I could make it "bleed" as little or as much as I wanted.

I got a tattoo that covered up my scars and covered the area I self harmed! It was also a promise for myself to never do it again. Now I look down and I see something beautiful. I haven’t self harmed since. Good luck ❤️

Distractions! I used to draw on myself when I had urges. Or I’ll go straight into the shower with music and cry. A good cry helps. Best of luck to you love. You can do this