Seeking Experiences with Dissociative Identity Disorder and Uncommon Alters

Hi, it's been about a little over a year so since my first dissociation episode that caused us (me as a system but also my household) to believe I have DID. During this episode I spent a bit over a week with only the memories of an Alter that stopped fronting at 6 years old, that spell of confusion and having other alters locked out ended after we went across town to pick up a kitten for my partner. However that wasnt the last time (this year has been STRESSFUL) and hindsight is 20/20 so I've been able to see some of my past behaviors clearer, both literally because we can better work together to share memories and metaphorically because I can understand the motives behind some things better knowing it wasnt actually me. I have since discovered that I currently have 18 alters who I know of but I am definitely missing some. I seem to have some uncommon traits, for example I am transmasc however all of my alters identify as mostly binary men (plenty GNC but still binary men) including several young children who dont understand/remember transitioning and assumed we're cis at first. it also seems that my relationship is fairly uncommon, my partner also has DID and all of our alters seem to have some kind of positive romantic/sexual feelings for each other even if they dont have an active relationship or even have spoken to each other. my system is also mostly kid alters, I have 4 documented alters above 18 (I both as the alter typing and as a body am 24) and most of the rest are under 13 years old and/or are animal alters, including many of the ones I know are missing. I'd like to hear about other people's experiences with these topics or any other you feel relevant/interesting.

Experiencing Memory Gaps and Altered Behavior: Possible DID?

Hi. So quick backstory uh I’m officially diagnosed with BPD but not DID but I’m starting to have stronger evidence it might in fact be the latter, or possibly both? Not sure. So i just want y’all’s thoughts on the latest odd behavior that I’m now realizing I’ve done all my life, but also suspecting why as well…. Anywho….. I’ve always avoided scrolling very far back in my own posts on ANY type of social media site, including this one. Never really noticed. Well, I’ve been a bit extra introspective as of late, and noticed sometimes old comments i made that come across my feed for whatever reason make me deeply uncomfortable, for two reasons. 1: i simply have no memory of making them at all and 2: i would never under any circumstances ever ever even say that thing. Well today it happened again, except this time said disturbing comment was on MY old post…. Which was equally bothersome. Something clicked in my head and, risking worse a bit of discomfort, scrolled back in my own posts pretty far. Some of them i remembered. Some i did not. And a lot of the ‘not’ ones were things i would never say. I realized without looking (thereby avoiding the most extreme discomfort yet) that i do the same thing (not scrolling back) in the most extreme form with messages. Yikes. Imo there are vastly compounding issues as to why this is problematic. Please think this thru before replying…. I don’t want to list all the symptoms I’ve come up with that fit the DID requirements perfectly or this post would be 5x this long haha. Also pardon me for not describing better… there’s still a lot of terminology i don’t know. TL;DR: Please tell me if this is something a DID individual would experience. TIA 💜

Dealing with Time-Related Depression: Seeking Advice

How do you deal with time related depression? Like not seasonal but like trauma time related. I have a consistent thing that makes me depressed this time of year and in spring and it makes me so depressed I can’t function outside of work (and sometimes barely there). I feel bad cause my partner has to take care of me right now because I’m physically not doing well either. The thing is finally not happening anymore (two years) How do you guys deal with this kind of thing to help you feel better while still facing that it’s there and not distracting?

Exploring Non-Medicalized Views of Multiplicity and Plurality

just a random thought on my mind, do any other systems diagnosed with DID/OSDD/etc prefer to view their multiplicity/plurality through a non-medicalized lens? we were dx. in a psych hospital, but because of many of our experiences feel like more than just disordered. we see our system as a mix of spiritual influences but also trauma based. it's helped us accepting everything about us, and im wondering if anyone else is similar ☺️

Feeling Faint: Seeking Advice

Since the end of July I've been feeling really faint. I haven't hit the ground yet but my vision goes black/blurry, my mouth gets dry, my heart pounds and I can't hear my surroundings, a few times I've forgotten where I was, and my body gets weak and I need to sit down. I have a doctor's appointment coming up and I've already brought it up with her, but I'm not anemic, and none of the results from my blood test were concerning. I've googled "why do I feel like fainting when I raise my arms above my chest" to try and get an idea of what questions I can ask my doctor and PoTS was one of the results. I don't think I have it but I think when they screen for pots, they look for other conditions that mimic the symptoms. would it be worthwhile to ask my doctor about that? what are some other questions I can line up? are there any questions I need to ask myself about my symptoms that would make my doctor's job easier? (background information that may or may not impact the above information) the first time I brought the issue up, we also decided to talk to my therapist about my symptoms possibly being the result of non epileptic dissociative seizures after my friend described seeing me shaking and sweating during one outside of our local mall as looking almost like a seizure. (I've tagged DID because it's the only disorder I have, that I know of, that may be impacting this)

Mental Health and Sickness

Does anyone else’s mental health get worse when they’re sick? I felt like I was doing a little better apart from anxiety but once we got sick it’s like everything hit the fan I was talking to my girlfriend and all of a sudden I felt like I was about to breaking down after talking for a bit I was okay but it’s frustrating I don’t know why it’s happening - Lou 🦋

Navigating Different Beliefs in a System

Do your system members have different political beliefs and religious beliefs? How do you deal with different beliefs in one system?

Dealing with Misunderstanding of D.I.D.

How do you deal with people not understanding or accepting your D.I.D.? I'd love to be feel free to openly talk about my alters with anyone, whether the person I'm talking to is a singlet or not.

Share an Interesting Fact About Your Alters or System

Tell me one interesting fact about your system? Or an interesting fact about any of the alters in your system Also would anyone like to be system friends? I have a friend making/mental health server you are welcome to Join. Just lmk.

Introduction of a Polyfragmented System with DID

Hey, just an introduction, we're a pretty big system of 300+ alters since we're polyfragmented. Were also neurodivergent and disabled! We were medically recognized back in 2019, but officially diagnosed a few months ago, still working to figure out everything but it's been one tough and interesting journey so far. I'd love to meet other systems alike! (CeCe)

Getting a Diagnosis for DID: How to Approach a New Psychiatrist?

How did y'all go about getting a diagnosis? We've discussed our system at length in therapy but we see psychiatry elsewhere and aren't a fan of our psychiatrist. We'd prefer not to open up about our suspected DID to her and we're thinking of finding a new psychiatrist. When we do, should we simply open up immediately about our system or what?