Struggling with Staying Committed to Work while Battling BPD

This is me to a T! I am sadly on disability because of it. I used to work a full-time job with no issues then trauma happened... BPD reared its ugly face! I had a manager who said very rude things behind closed doors and ruined management forever for me. Every time I ve tried to work since I last just under a month and something always fails me....either my mental health or my diabeates. I ve also been hospitalized many a time.... I have one suggestion: find ways to ground yourself, and always have an escape plan. If you need to get away for a moment make sure you can in a decent amount of time. Also keep fidget toys on you... keeps your hands busy and possibly even your mind which is the biggest thing to keep busy. I totally understand being scared of management... I've learned to try not to take anything personal...much easier said then done of course lol 😆 I wish you luck!

It's so nice to have someone relate 😄 how do you cope with the anxiety of learning new things at work ? I get major anxiety that I'll never learn and I get major anxiety about management getting annoyed with how long it takes for me to learn

I actually struggle with the same thing, I’ve quite 3 times because of my issues with commitment and the anxiety I get from it, so I hear you, it’s a horrible struggle. What I’ve found helpful is time management, and making sure I meet my needs while also acknowledging the importance of my work as long as it doesn’t come to a detriment to my health. When it does, I reach out, not using direct language cause unfortunately many work places aren’t accepting of mental illness and what it actually looks like in one’s life(as much as they’ll say they may do sometimes) but in the times where my brain is like “I need to quit” I instead go “if there any options to work with right now,” and give my brain some small sense of escape that it may need if that makes sense?? Im wishing you the best