Struggling with Self-Harm and Relapse

I understand what you are going through I had a depressive episode where I had nothing but flashbacks playing in my head. What helps me is picking up the phone and talking to someone on the suicide hotline. Don't be afraid to call them we all go through hard times.

i definitely feel this but every time my s/o leaves me when they can literally see me sobbing on the floor i relapse. i know people are going to say "dont be with those people" and everything but i cant seem to escape it and i always try to find the right people and change how i go about relationships but i never get it right... its a struggle ive yet to fix. im happy that the relationship youre in you guys can calm down and talk about it later but you can still go to sleep in the same bed at night... i hope for nothing but the best for you and im sorry for word vomiting my bad past on your post but i hope it in some way makes you see you have a great person in your life. like i said i wosh nothing but the best for you and your partner and i hope you have an amazing future with them all hugs and love from me 💕

I’m so sorry that you are feeling this way. I used to self harm a lot as well and know how difficult it is when you fall back into that pattern. Starting that whole process over is rough. Are you seeing a therapist or on any medications for your depression? If you feel safe doing so, I would definitely reach out to your s/o and let them know what’s been going on. I think opening up about that and having someone who’s paying extra attention to the triggers you’re having is so helpful. They might be able to change their actions or adjust how they react in certain moments. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me!

Does your S/O know of your history/struggles with self harm? If so have you sat down with them and discussed the struggles of relapses etc with them and how they can help?