Struggling with Mental Health: My Journey So Far

warning: suicidal thoughts, and long post So I've been on a long desperate journey on figuring out my mental health issues. I'm going to start at the very beginning of this year. In January,I was promoted as a chat agent at a call center and I started having issues with breathing. I was getting overwhelmed with having to chat with three people at once and having a time limit to help each one of them. the notifications and the constant back n forth having to keep with these chats and respond back to work group chats and supervisors. it got really rough. everytime I had an incoming chat with the ringing notification my brain would twitch and I'd get extremely anxious. then I started having panic attacks, the doctor gave me celexa to get through the stress of my job and was also waiting on my workplace to approve my accomodations from my gen doctor. also I don't handle medicines well at all in general and I never took antidepressants. Everyday I was experiencing more panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, meltdowns, uncontrollable shaking in my arm and ended up having a nervous breakdown where I had to quit my Job. My husband saw that I was suffering and made me leave the job bc I was only going to continue to self destruct further. I had a therapy session and turns out that I have OCD, Social Phobia, Anxiety, Depression, and she is certain that I am Autistic. I felt relieved to have somewhat of a better understanding of why I am the way I am, it's relieving but at the same time scary. I've only told my close family members and friends. I am also waiting on my appointment with a psychologist to evaluate me for the diagnosis. Im getting so tired of waiting... I am not working and heck I'm not even driving to bc of my anxiety has taken over my life rn. I did apply for a job at a Library but never heard from them... I feel so lost and such a loser bc I'm not working. I've tried everything to keep my mind off of things and trying to rest but I'm getting stir crazy. I don't have a routine and it is driving me absolutely mad. I even tried making up a routine here but nothing is helping... is this normal? to feel like this? I just feel like my life is on hold while everyone is achieving their goals. I'm used to be in a constant movement, doing things, but it just really sucks and everyone keeps telling me to rest and wait until I get diagnosed and figure it out from there. but what if I can't figure it out... if you read this far, thank you so much... I apologize for the long read. I'm just ranting and honestly any advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.