Struggling with Mental Health

Rant Really upset because I'm convinced I'm not gonna get any real help and I'm just gonna be stuck like this forever. I hate suffering every day and waking up just to do it over and over again. I can't even communicate with the people in my head, I don't know their names, anything about them. So how am I supposed to share a body with a bunch of strangers. It's so stupid. If I had a loving father I wouldn't be so messed up but here I am dealing with all of this bs meanwhile he just gets to deal with none of it. It's so frustrating. I wish everyday life wouldn't be so difficult and I wouldn't be suffering every day. I'd love it if I could at least cope better with my symptoms. But right now, it feels like a rapid descent into madness and I can't do anything about it. I want an intervention but so far all the professionals I've talked to have no idea what to do for me. I don't know what to do for me. So I just sit in a slump hoping things will get better and they never do. It sucks. I hate it. Nothing feels real anyway so nothing would really change if I just left. It'd make things a lot easier.