Struggling with Mental Health and Toxic Relationships

I am a 38-year-old mother of three and also some fur babies, my family has what keeps me going as most days are such a struggle even on meds and with a therapist. Not sure if it’s my ADD depression OCD and now some PTSD from my first marriage. I guess it could be a cumulative when I was a kid and I mean like seven or younger. I did have anger issues more primarily towards homework that would frustrate me which I believe it was a symptom of my ADD. I was put on Ridellan, which did not work. There were years there where I wasn’t on any meds but I was in private schools and I was very happy and my temper, even though out for a while, once it was time to graduate high school, I fell into a deep depression. College was not a thing for me. I married my older boyfriend I had at the time and had two beautiful girls. Relationship was toxic, however. And many of the toxic traits I left with from dealing with their father. I still am struggling to overcome and find my old self my happy self, I have found it easier at times, but I had a setback this evening and I had a total breakdown which reminds me of the breakdowns I would have because of my ex-husband’s antics.