Struggling with Disability and Pregnancy

Being physical and mentally disabled while also pregnant and trying to get disability for years now is just exhausting. I fight with my doctors every time I see them to even take me seriously more or less give me my proper and needed medicines. I’m just fully exhausted and drained from life and moving like this. My chronic pain and other conditions have made waking up everyday a nightmare that I wish I could end. I miss the old me before I got this way. I feel like I’m just living life on autopilot, and even though I’m in a relationship I still feel alone every moment of everyday. I am just defeated and out for the rest of this game I think. I truly don’t know what to do anymore and have lost hope.