Struggling with Dark Thoughts and Past Trauma

I could not have said it any better, I understand most of what you’re going through and I am dealing with the same problems hopefully we can get through this together 🫠

hey! I struggle with the same thing but I have some advice for the assholes that cheated on you. First of all, it isn't your fault the decisions they made, it never will be your fault and you didn't deserve it. second of all, heal. I found myself running back again and again to the same emotionally avaliable people unconciously. You're bound to attract alot if these people by default and it sucks. I wasn't taking my time to heal from those past relationships so finding rebounds or trying to get back into love quickly had me finding people who are just like my exes. Good luck, I hope you get the help you need and the happiness you deserve ❤️

Hey! Before I was on medication I’d have a really loud floor fan for ambient noise and listen to podcasts before I sleep! I personally love crime podcasts because of the suspense about finding out who did what. I hope this helps <3

Am sorry that ur feeling like this

I get the really, really rough depression nights too. I have one or two friends I trust with my life that I talk to occasionally during them, and it helps ground me a little. It sounds like your trauma is affecting you, but it can get better. There's counselors that specialize in identifying how it's affecting you and finding ways to help it not affect you anymore. I'm so sorry you went through something like that. But please know that it can get better.