Siblings Minimizing My Illness

Both of my siblings say that I have fake anxiety and depression... And more and my brother is turning 17 and I jus turned 18 and he is like "wow you fake everything just to get your way" and he doesn't understand that Im not ok and that I am trying to do my best but when your mom disowns you... You have no where to go.. and it's hard.. but what has gotten my thru is reaching out to people I know I can trust. And telling them what's going on. Not over text but over call or face to face. Which Is why I like face timing people.. and calling people before I go to bed bc it helps me sleep at night knowing someone cares..

i have a sister who does the same thing shes like the golden child in my family and she has joined in with my mom to mock me and call me a faker when i have anxiety attacks. i just avoid them as much as i can. sorry i know this isnt much help.

Long story short i’m an attention seeker who want my parents attention……. Which is not…. Yet i feel huge shame as if i really was one… i also cant cry easily because when i was young my siblings would corner me and threaten me if i cry. Which lead to have panic attacks… since i cant get the relief of crying… how can i cry again…? I only get few tears and barely cry properly… once i do i feel huge relief as if my chest is lighter….