Physical Symptoms of Mental Health Struggles

I've been so stressed lately. I can't eat or drink without nausea meds, can't sleep until my body steals it from me, can't stop being cold (even when I'm wearing a T-shirt and shorts under a blanket with my heat blasting at 79), can't stop crying, my throat feels closed all the time, my fibro is flaring HARD, and there's a pang in my chest that keeps folding in and in on itself. my therapist calls it grief, and suggested Intensive Outpatient Psychotherapy. one partner travelled for work a while ago, and the other just left to also travel for work - the first can't come back for a while, and the second won't. but my physical health keeps going downhill despite my best efforts??? how do I hurt less??

my anxiety gets so bad that it starts to cause physical symptoms, when i’m showing too much skin for my brain to handle (it’s hot out and i’m wearing shorts and a tank top) i start to get waves of dizziness, nausea, lung pain, etc until i cover myself and am able to calm down. i don’t remember most of my childhood so i don’t know if there is a specific reason that caused this or what, but it gets really bad. i’m a bigger person so that could also be a playing factor but i’m not sure ?? anyways does anyone know what could have caused this issue or anything to help cope with it? i’m not very good with words i tend to start to ramble because i don’t know how to get my point across anyways bejdjahdbsb

Struggling with Eating Disorders and Nausea